*is listening to "The Scientist" and squeeeeeing*

So after much stress and confusion, I am now enrolled in a basic drawing class :DDDD It's really hard and I'm actually dreading going to it in about 20 minutes since it's 2  and a half hours bent over a drawing table...but hey, I gotta bust my ass to get in the design college.

GUESS WHO CAME BACK TO COLLEGE WITH ME BECAUSE HE MISSED CFINE-BEAR SO MUCH?! THAT'S RIGHT! ZQGQ-BEAR!

They were cuddling. I'm not kidding. See for yourself



Obviously the blond bear is CFine and the brown one is ZQ. I may have moved their hands a bit, but I swear they were that close together when I woke up. Ain't they kyuuuuuuut?! <3

Well, I gotta get my shit together for drawing and then math at 7:30 pm :(

Later,
Liz <3

ontd_startrek

I should think it only fitting that the summer before I go off to college I spend reminescing (sp?) about the good old days and rekindling my past obsessions.

Nat's back into Silent Hill (for the fifth time it seems...XD) and I've been watching Japanese eps of Sailor Moon and reading the manga (which rocks btw...more below). I've also been replaying both LoZ: Twilight Princess and Windwaker. And they both still rock my socks.

Now let's talk about Sailor Moon...which by all definition should be the epitome of a bad show--shoujo/magical girl or not. Some stupid 14-year-old can transform into a soldier in a sailor suit and fight bad guys who gather energy. Okay...yeah???

But, Sailor Moon revamped the traditional shoujo comic. Before SM, it was all romance and who gets the guy and blah blah blah. SM had themes of romance and such, but it also reminded girls of the importance of their friendships. Which is kinda cool. I mean, the Senshi wouldn't just give up their lives for Usagi because she's the princess...but also because she's their friend.

Anyhoo, the manga is like miles better than the anime (Japanese or dub, doesn't matter). For one, Mamoru has a PERSONALITY! and ATTACKS! He DOES THINGS! Instead of throw roses!! *GASPETH!* Also, in the manga, Usagi and Mamoru start to have feelings for each other BEFORE they find out about their past lives as the prince and princess. They have little glimmers of it, but the attraction starts before that. Which is cooler than in the anime where it kind of seems like they fall in love BECAUSE of their past lives as opposed to being genuinely in love.

Which by the way, who's idea was it to make Mamoru so old in the anime? He's only 17 in the manga dating a 14-year-old. Which isn't as weird as like a 20-year-old dating a 14-year-old. Whatever.

Oh and watch Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon (the live action show) for the lulz. Apparently, the Japanese didn't need us North Americans to ruin one of the greatest metaseries of all time. Though Usagi is really cute (but then again she's always cute XD)

Yeah, I highly recommend the SM manga to people. Though be WARNED, IT IS NOT THE CUTESY SHOUJO YOU ARE THINKING OF. It's waaaaay cooler. Check it out. (if you get hooked...google for the rest of the chapters. dunno what happened to the scanning group...they're still active just not on SM at the moment).
 

Blatant cross-post from my Xanga.

Okay, I needs some assistance over the summer. No it is not financial (though that totally would come in handy...jk).

Here's the thing: I'm between obsessions. I'm feeling artsy. But I don't know what to draw.

My plea to you, dear reader: Give me something to draw. Tell me what you want and I'll crap it out on paper for you.

All I want in return is you saying, "OMG! That's awesome!" or "Mmmmkay...can we fix this plzkthx?"

If you feel the need to pay, let's do a trade instead. I'll take whatever you offer <3

I really need to get some practice done and all the stuff I've been working on is just sitting on my comp because I don't want to finish it. If I know someone is waiting for it, I'll be more apt to finish it. Get it?

The only thing I won't draw is porn. And if you request something of questionable nature...well, let's just say I'll probably be working on things at school until May 28th. After that, go crazy!

Thank you very much everyone!!!!! I HEART YOU ALL! <333

Liz <3

...it isn't.

I seriously thought that once prom was over, I would have nothing else to worry about. Well, I really don't. Everything up til graduation is going to be a snap. There's seven school days left (!!!) and the teachers are as sick of us as we are of them. Nooooooo prob.

But that doesn't stop the nagging little voice in the back of my head making me think there's something I'm forgetting. It's just a feeling...but it's annoying.

I really can't wait to get out of here. I have my official room assignment and it feels so close and yet so far away all at the same time. And I'm so seriously over school that it's simply a matter of going through the motions for seven more days.

And let's talk about prom...so no magic (not that I was expecting any) but it felt really good to get all pretty-ed up and have random people complement me and tell me that I'm beautiful. And not just my family. I mean, they're pretty much morally obligated to tell me I'm pretty even if I'm not (case in point: prom last year....*shudder*). But I got kids from school who I barely talk to, calling me out on the dance floor to tell me I looked awesome. That feels really good. I don't hold much stock in physical appearences (lord knows I don't care that much about mine) but...it felt really nice. Really really REALLY nice.

And my date looked suave...thanks to me, of course. Black suit, black shirt, black vest and white tie. He looked very handsome and classy. Even my dad said so XD

But yeah...so mixed feelings on prom. I had fun before and after...actually at prom...meh, it was fine. I'm not much of a dancer and what else is there to do at prom? But before and after made up for it though.

Have I mentioned how ready I am to get the hell out of here? Yeah...there's no way to articulate how ready I am. Three and a half months is way too fucking long. WAY too long.

BLARGH

So I thought the least of my worries this week would be my major extended essay/term paper (entitled "My Philosophy of Life") which is due tomorrow. However, I finished it in 2 days with some time to spare and it's pretty bangin' I must say.

Instead, my major worry is going to be fucking prom. PROM. The bane of my existance since I bought my freaking dress a month ago and Matt asked me to go with him. BLARGH!

Apparently, we have no plan as to where we want to meet ,what we're going to do, etc. We have reservations at the Melting Pot and I know that we need to leave town around 5:15-30ish to meet our reservation. But as far as all the in-between and meeting stuff...I have no clue. And it's pissing me off that I don't know because I HATE NOT KNOWING THINGS!

Grrrrr...and I was stressing about getting my eyebrows done. Not because of the actual procedure but what it will look like afterwards. I'm sure it'll look nice...but I still don't want a drastic change so near the end of school. Maybe over summer or next year, I'll do it. But until then...I just don't want to worry about it.

Okay, I think that's enough ranting on my part about things I know I shouldn't worry about. Did I mention I'm PMSing? That's probably why things are bothering me so much. Damn hormones...

A kid that graduated from my school last year (class of '08) killed himself in the park down the street from my house last night. He mass-texted all of his friends to say goodbye and then pulled the trigger.

I didn't know him personally very well, but he stood outside in 40 degree weather last year with two other guys to fix my best friend's car so I know he wasn't a bad person. A lot of people that I know were close to him so today was hell. All over FB, I'm seeing "RIP Spencer" posts and it makes me so sad that something like this happened to someone who wasn't a bad guy.

AND in the world of my own petty problems that really seem meaningless in light of this tragedy, I lost a scholarship today. A big $10,000 scholarship. They called me out of class at the end of 2nd period to give me the rejection letter. THEY CALLED ME OUT OF CLASS.  I think mailing the thing would have been sufficient instead of that slap in the face before going to 3rd.

That on top of worrying about my friends grieving for Spencer just made this the suckiest day ever when I should be dancing in the fields.

My parents ordered my graduation/birthday present last night: two section 1 seats to see Coldplay live when they come to town in August. I told Mary this morning that nothing could bring me down. We can see how wrong I was.

Anyway, all of this made me realized that no matter my mood, ayaka's "Okaeri" makes it all not worth worrying about. The lyrics (which I've read so many times I've memorized them) are all about being home, being welcomed home by the people who love you and will always be there for you. It reminds me that I have people who ALWAYS there for me. My dad wasn't mad at all about losing the scholarship. In fact, he wanted to call and congratulate the girl who did get it (my best friend, in case you were wondering).

But anyway, mom and nat and I are going to see 17 Again tonight to cheer me up and we'll have fun and I'll say a little prayer for Spencer's family and friends tonight before I go to sleep. I have to remember to text and see if everyone's okay tomorrow.

I now leave you with some uplifting lyrics:
welcome home, sweet home
a place to go home to yeah
thanks for your love

pretending to be alright again
to paint out the color of sadness 
i just laugh it off

the importance of believing
even if i understand it
well, there are times when i still doubt

times when my empty body   
just flows by
it makes me want to just lie down, but
i just want to hold you 
this feelings stab thru me so i can move on

welcome home, im home
with one word my heart is satisfied
welcome home, where love 
has a place to go home to yeah
thanks for your love
-ayaka "Okaeri (Welcome Home)"
lyrics from http://hitorigoto.subersibo.net/2008/04/okaeri-ayaka-beta-version/

I got a 3 on my Calc BC practice exam! The one that I only did 2 of the 6 free response questions and apparently beasted the multiple choice :DDDDDD

Much better than I expected frsure. I was expected like a 2 on the actual exam and a pretty decent AB subscore.

If you have no idea what I'm talking about, don't worry. A 3 out of 5 on this test is DAMN good. I'm excited.

Anyone else been watching Bones????? WHEN WILL BONES AND BOOTH GET IN THE SACK DAMMIT?! Their looks towards each other already say, "God, I just want to rip your clothes off and bang on this examination table." So WHEN WILL IT HAPPEN?! HART HANSON! MAKE IT HAPPEN! SOON!

Mom thinks it'll be the season finale. And then (hopefully) in season 5, it'll focus on them hiding the relationship. At least, that's what I HOPE will happen. I'm not sure how I'll feel with the lovely sexual tension has finally bursted...but we'll see :D

Oh and David Boreanez is hot hot HOT. I personally think he's hotter as Booth than Angel, but I think Booth's personality--alpha-male tendencies, jokes, nicknames, etc.--is more of a turn-on that broody, emo Angel. But that's just me.

Oh! and we're reading Pride and Prejudice in AP Eng and it's so lovely. I love it so much. I'm so in to the whole world of Austen and plan to read all her books over the summer (while preparing for college!!!). And I don't care who I piss off with this statement but I would much rather be an Elizabeth Bennet than a Bella Swan and would much rather have a Mr. Darcy than an Edward Cullen.

Darcy is also hot hot hot HOT. Would hit that. Def.

Which actually started about 10:30 on Tuesday. Went to lunch with the gang (minus Durgie) and then had to take Matt home (yes, prom date!Matt) and then headed to the library. Browsed, found nothing, went out to my car and it wouldn't start. Very nice lady (who coincidentally is the sister of the chick my mom roomed with in college) helped me out and gave me a ride home when she couldn't jump my car. Dad jumped it, drove to get me and we drove it to the repair place and got a new battery and cables put in.

THAT was Tuesday. YESTERDAY (the first OFFICIAL day of break) I went shopping with Mommy and Nat and bought a cute sundress (blue) and a gold/yellow tank top to go under it which I'm wearing on Saturday (see below)

TODAY, went to eat at Kaze Japanese Steakhouse for Grandma's b-day and went to Crossroads shopping center with Mary and found absolutely nothing. But we got to hang out and talk and lament Mary's lack of freedom especially when it comes to Saturday (keep going...)

TOMORROW am going with Kathleen and her family (?) to the Zoo which is like an hour away. Have to get up at 7 to be at her house by 7:30ish to leave at 8ish. Should be fun though. Haven't been to the Zoo since I was like 7(ish). But that's not the funnest part of spring break....

...SATURDAY, my gang: Me, Melinda, Chris, Aubrey, Neil, Matt, Durga, Jon, and HOPEFULLY Mary are going to Carolina Beach for the day to hang out, swim, have OODLES OF FUN! WITH NO PARENTS! This is the first time I've ever done ANYTHING like this! I'm so excited!!!! We are gonna have a blast and if we don't, I won't talk to any of them for weeks (not gonna happen XD). I really feel like I'm going to be a 18 soon since my dad was totally cool with us going and even asked why we weren't staying overnight. I told him it was because not everyone's parents were cool with a bunch of teenagers going overnight to the beach. When HE did that, it was 1979 and things weren't so uptight like they are now.

Anyhoo, am totes excited. But I have to go to bed soon so I'll be bright-eyed and bushy-tailed for the Zoo tomorrow. And then...THE BEACH!!! WHOOOOOOO HOOOOOOO!

Oh and check this dude who does awesome rock remixes on YouTube (the "Poker Face" one is the best). Can anyone else say "The Next Travis Barker?"

Later,
Liz <3